I just want to be close to you
Despite everything that you're going through
I just want to be close to you
Despite everything that you're going through

I'm normally ornery
Leaving people wanting more from me
It's honestly haunting me
Living like this it's like a constant theme
Why do people want to talk to me?
Why can't I change my energy
Get overwhelmed so easily
And lose my shit so frequently
Counsellor who's treating me
Ok but I can't stop being me
Psychopath leave my mouth running like it's idle gas
Suffering succotash ADD suck at math
Man I swear I'm way too old for this
And I wish I had control of shit
Even if I have it for a second I can't hold a grip
Meanwhile you hold out your hand and ask to help me shoulder it
Picture frames cover holes from that time I broke my wrist
Never was a chauvinist but you were my first sober kiss
I know its not how it's supposed to me
But you persist unclench my first & still wanna be close to me

I just want to be close to you
Despite everything that you're going through
I just want to be close to you
Despite everything that you're going through

I'm normally bordering uneasy and disorderly
Cut big Pharma orders and we sparking it up accordingly
I used to take Effexor
The ween off it effects her
Whole reason I was on it was an ex applying pressure
They wanna tame the shaky legs
The way you make that crazy face storm inside taking place
Disregard broken plates
Cold turkey bold killer, brain zaps cold shivers
Old me is dead now
On that grave is poured liquor
And so I thought that I moved on from this
Activated consciousness
And patience in responsiveness
But often times I'm on some shit
Lose my lid and common sense
And turn into a rotten mess
I say I think I need to medicate
You say I think you need to meditate
I know it's not how it's supposed to be but you persist unclench my fist and still wanna be close to me

I just want to be close to you
Despite everything that you're going through
I just want to be close to you
Despite everything that you're going through

If I overreact don't know how to adapt
I want to be close to you
Will you shoot me some bail on the days that I fail
I want to be close to you
No control of it all punch a hole in the wall
I want to be close to you
If you give me the grace when I fall on my face then I will let you close to me